Staff Letters: Phil

...I've worn out always being afraid... An endless stream of fear that I've made...

Ever wonder...
If it had worked out with your highschool sweetheart? If you had realized you were being played sooner? If Neo had taken the blue pill? You could go back in time and change one thing about your past? You could make one decision based on knowledge of the future effects? You could read people's minds. You hadn't said that one comment... You had asked that girl out? You hadn't asked that girl out? You had been born in a different generation? You had been born in a different state/country? You had been raised by parents other than your own - how different would you be? If coincidences mean anything? What the world would be like if masturbation really was a sin? What would happen if this country wasn't full of ignorant fools? What cavemen felt like? What it would be like if you could remember birth? What the difference between "true love" and "love" is? How much semen come goes down shower drains each year? How much intercourse is had in a given year? What you would do if you met God? If any religion is anything but billions of miles away from the truth? Why people have no self control? Why no one can pull up to a curb, but instead must lean out of their car to swipe their card/put change in the machine/pay the cashier/get their food? Why so few people can say what's on their mind? Why most people would rather have a stiff drink than just talk to the person pissing them off? Why people who eat 3 cheeseburgers a day don't understand why they're fat? How there are still racist people on earth? Why any government official cares who you're fucking, who you're in love with, or what you do with your love/sex life? How so many people can not realize that Afghanistan and Iraq are two different countries, or that Hussein and bin Laden are two different people? Why some guys are 'tit-guys' while others are 'ass-guys' (doesn't anyone look at the whole package anymore?)? If thinks about people with the same anamilisticly-raw-sexual zeal that you do? If the guy who made rice crispies thought they were trying to talk to him? If the people who work for cigarette companies feel guilty? What you would change if you could instantly change one thing about your personality (I said your personality!! bigger boobs doesn't count!). If you had to make a choice between staying with the person you love and giving up orgasms for the rest of your life (I have no idea when this would come up, but assume you'll never be able to have another orgasm from yourself, your partner, or anyone else ever again if you choose to stay), or giving up the person you love and being able to move on and meet other people, etc. - what you would choose? What you would do if you knew no one could ever find out? What you would do if you had the power of God for one hour?

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Short update on other stuff: Halloween, despite my best efforts, was still not great this year. It was definitely better than last year (at least I wasn't moping about a girl I never really had anyway), but all in all, it wasn't a stellar weekend. The highlights include having a decent party when waves of people would show up between their other parties. Downsides include stress, fighting with Lynn, and others.

Not to worry, all is well now. I'm dreading Thanksgiving. I really hate Thanksgiving. I generally hate a bunch of people getting excited about something I don't like, and so I hate it even more than I otherwise would hate it. Thanksgiving is that annoying time when someone is nice enough to invite me to their place and I can either go, feel very uncomfortable, not eat anything (because there's nothing served at Thanksgiving I eat -- even the deserts are horrid), or I can feel uncomfortable turning them down because I'd prefer to be at home cooking one of my famous 1 lb. garlic-n-cheese burgers. ::sigh::

Glad the election is over. Sick of dealing with that crap. Very sad Bush got re-elected, but as I said above: no shock, we live in a country full of morons who care more about the fact that Bush claims to be Christian than the fact he's going to run our country into the ground. Damn Jesus Freaks.

On the bright side, three Metallica shows this month!! See ya'll out on the road!

Until next time...
Phil

GOOD

Metallica this month!
Lynn and I doing well!

BAD

No motorcycle yet
Not enough time for anything
Halloween sucked
Thanksgiving is coming

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